8w

Ok, so I'm going by the count the doctor is using, so I'm officially 8 weeks today, even though I'm really only 7w4d because of how late I ovulated. But instead of confusing myself, I'll go with what the doctor is using and just expect to be a few days late.

As for the ultrasound, it was perfect, baby is measuring a little behind, but by my calculations - right on track! We got to see the heartbeat - 151 beats per minute! So perfect!! I'm so excited and know that being as sick as I am will all be worth it. Now I need to find an OB back in PA and set up an appt for when I get there. I've technically graduated from the RE, but since I'm not going to see an OB in Buffalo, he will be who I call until I leave if there are any issues.

And on the morning sickness end of things, I'm still nauseous ALL day long with very little relief. I'm still not throwing up and I'm so grateful. But I went to acupuncture last night and it was no help. She recommended sea bands, but I've heard mixed reviews. I guess anything is worth a shot right now. I just love food so much and I don't know why this little one doesn't like it.

On the moving end, we started packing, but I feel like its going to take forever and this weekend is our last free weekend and then we have plans every weekend after. The plan is to move back to PA for the summer and most likely the winter depending on where Pat gets a job. He really wants me around our families at this time. So the move is scheduled for mid-May.

6w5d - I Know its Been Awhile

Things were pretty uneventful after we finally found the pumpkin. At night, I would only feel a little nauseous because of lingering smells wherever we were. But then while we were in Philadelphia this past weekend for a conference for Pat, morning sickness hit full on. I did not want to eat anything and everything was making me feel sick. So since Saturday, the little pumpkin has decided that food isn't so good. I haven't thrown up, but I am constantly nauseous. Yesterday, I had some crackers and Gatorade and took a B6 vitamin - I had 4 full hours of comfort and was able to grab some real food for dinner, but then it started right back up. I know not eating is part of the problem, but I don't feel good when I eat and I don't feel good when I do eat. I called the doctors office today and got the mean nurse. She said there is nothing they can give me, which I know is a lie - there are some things out there that could provide a little relief. I guess since I'm not actually throwing anything up, I don't warrant a pill to help me. Its not like I really want to take something because I don't, but I just want to make sure the baby is getting everything needed and right now I feel like the baby is not getting enough nutritional food.

Anyway, I guess I only have 6 more weeks from what I've read and heard. With trying to start packing these next few weeks, though, I hope I can be of some help to Pat. And on a great note, we get to see the little pumpkin on Monday and hopefully see and hear the little beating heart. I feel like this will all be real then. With all the scares we had in the beginning, this will be so amazing.

Our Little Pumpkin

5w1d

We found the baby!! Well, really the gestational sac, but its there and in the right spot! I'm so happy and relieved. I barely slept last night thinking about everything that coul happen today. Now I feel like I can really celebrate. We go back in 2 weeks to see the heartbeat!

4w6d - Update

The numbers are where they should be. Next ultrasound is Saturday, so hopefully we'll be able to see the little pumpkin!

4w6d - There is Hope

We *may* have seen the baby. The nurse seriously did the ultrasound for about 20 minutes, but she was not giving up til she found something. And right at the end, she found what possibly could be the sac. Its still really tiny, but we're all hopeful that its the baby. The doctor came in and said his gut is telling him that this is the baby and that everything will be ok. I know he was so serious, but of course still had to mention the ectopic. I went for more b/w today to see if the levels went up. I hope they did. The nurse mentioned that since the levels were so high originally and since we couldn't find anything at first, that we possibly could have had two, but now only have one. I pray that this is the case (or that there are still 2 little ones). I just have to keep remembering that "Life is fragile, but Hope is Strong." Please pray for our little pumpkin (thats what Pat is calling her/him). Everything about this process has been slow and steady, so hopefully that is the case here.

4w5d - Update

The numbers didn't quite double since Monday. I go back tomorrow for an ultrasound. Hopefully, we will be able to see something.

4w5d

Some uncertain and unsettling news today at the doctors...they couldn't find the gestational sac. Everyone was really great and supportive. They're telling me there could be a few reasons for this. The first is that it just may be too early and I have a baby that is taking its time developing, the second is that there could be multiples (I'm not sure why this would take longer to see, but apparently, it does), and finally, it could be an ectopic pregnancy. I went for more bloodwork today and go back tomorrow for an ultrasound. I hope my numbers are still doubling and that everything is ok. The doctor said it could only take a day to see something. I was totally panicked and still am a bit, but I don't have any symptoms of an ectopic - no bleeding, cramping, or pain. In fact the only symptoms I have of this pregnancy are sore breasts and constant hunger. I actually told Pat last night that there has to be two in there, since I don't think I'm supposed to be as hungry as I am. I pray that that is what is going on here. I'm hoping I went early enought for b/w today that I'll get a call back with results later this afternoons, if not I'll have to wait until tomorrow to hear anything at all. Please keep your fingers crossed and keep us in your prayers.